By Chelsea Moore
Domestic Adoption Coordinator
Journeys of the Heart Adoption
When making the choice to place my daughter for adoption I never thought it would just be the start of a new family. What I thought was my mess actually became my message and one of the toughest tests in life soon became a testimony. From my experience working in behavioral health, and other social service occupations, I learned that I wanted to make a difference. I wanted to help others through their struggles and see them through to the end. It was not until I was faced with my own struggle that I knew where my career and life journey was going. That is where Journeys of the Heart comes in.
I believe to fully understand my journey through adoption and to learn how I ended up at Journeys, you must know a piece of my story.
While attending college, I found myself facing an unplanned pregnancy. All the thoughts that run through your head start to become a constant worry and the fear of everyone else’s reactions become an everyday reality. Growing up with divorced parents made things tough. I knew that one day I wanted to settle down with my soul mate and raise my children together. When faced with an unplanned pregnancy, all those thoughts went flying out the door. I felt disappointed, because I knew the struggles of single parenting at my age, and also the heartache that comes with it when your child starts asking questions. I knew she deserved more and I was going to have to buckle down and swallow all those maternal thoughts that were racing through my head.
My toughest struggle was telling my parents about becoming pregnant and fearing their rejection. Of course they were disappointed, but mostly they were scared. I would talk about adoption in hopes to give them some sort of relief, but initially that was not my plan. I was more worried about how I was going to cope psychologically with placing my child for adoption, rather than my owm child’s psychological development later. It was not until I was 7 months pregnant that I decided I wanted to contact the adoption agency that I heard great things about.
As soon as I met my adoption coordinator, I felt a sense of relief. She told me that they had many families that I would be able to choose from and that it was perfectly ok for me to choose a family that would be open to having as much contact as I wanted. I liked that a lot. It made me feel like I had some control and that after I delivered Corinne, it was not going to be the end. Throughout my time working with the adoption agency, I still struggled back and forth. One day I would tell my coordinator that I did not know if I could go through with it, and one day I would be excited about it. There was so many emotions. I was sent a box of family photobooks in my 8th month of pregnancy and made a connection with a family right away. I had the opportunity to ask questions about them and then eventually meet with them for dinner. I must say that discussing the idea of giving my child to them over some enchiladas and tacos was more than a big deal. Everyone seemed nervous, including myself.
I decided to move forward with Shane and Audra after meeting them and knew the love they had for me and Corinne. I told them that I would choose them as long as they would dress her in her Texas Tech Red Raider outfits that I had already bought her for game days. Of course they took pictures of this and included them in my updates.
The love that came when it was time to give birth to Corinne was strong. It was special, and being a mother for the first time made it hard. The bittersweet feeling that came with the experience is one only someone can feel and not describe. The day before I signed my relinquishment documents, I had a fear of changing my mind. What happened next changed everything. I made a trip to Target to buy some paper to write a letter to Corinne. In the midst of my running thoughts and procrastination, a lady approached me and put her hand on my shoulder and told me that whatever I was struggling with at this time that I was going to be ok and that I was making the right decision. The peace and contentment that came from these short words was greater than the fear that I had for what was to come next. I know that not everyone will get this type of reassurance as I did, but if you are making this decision with yourself and your child’s best interest in mind, that is reassurance in itself.
Once I signed my paperwork with the agency and placed Corinne in the arms of her adoptive parents, it was time to start fresh. Not forget, but move forward. I thought of her every hour of the day. I would get texts and emails with pictures of her and notes about how she was doing and that was such a relief.
It was not until a year after she was born that I had a realization to pursue a career in adoption. I wanted to see both sides of it. I appreciated my daughter’s parents, Shane and Audra, and I wanted to help other families grow. I especially wanted to help other brave women considering adoption. My journey through adoption not only helped me grow, but it inspired me in so many ways. Adoption is not the choice for everyone but for those considering this option, it is ever rewarding. You are in control of your adoption plan and have the opportunity to be a part of your child’s life. We are a special kind of people and I am here to support you through the entire process.
I am grateful and honored to be working for an organization such as Journeys of the Heart. This is a dedicated team of individuals with genuine hearts to help children and families. They truly uphold their mission, and that is why I am honored to be a part of this team.
If you find yourself facing an unplanned pregnancy at any time please feel comfortable contacting me. We are available 24/7, any time before or after your baby is born. We offer guidance and counseling to help you in considering your options.
I hope that this story has inspired you. It was women like myself that helped me see the positives in adoption.
Thank you and sincerely,
Journeys of the Heart Adoption
24 Hour Birthmother Phone